There is certain mystery to me when I watch her. She calls herself a god, but I am convinced that she is more of a very attractive androgynous nymph. There other girls in which such sexual tension is lacking and it comes through to me more as an act. The female in her takes preponderonce over the almost non existent masculine side, but the sort ambivalance that occurs creates in me a certain sexual attraction and tension at the same time.

I have always been attracted to contradictions, rather mysterious contradictions, in this case it is not a willful act but an inner sense of definite attraction and appreciation of her beauty, which I won't deny. What I find distasteful is when a girl like this possesses a dominant masculine aggression, so in my opinion they cease to be androgynous nymphs, in the truly Greek sense of the idea, the sexual attraction is not there. I also find in such cases the importance in hygiene is almost ignored. I love a lot of things about women, but a truly sense of hygiene is most attractive, and most beautiful women possess that, so does our self-proffessed goddess here. It's not a question of which would I prefer, or if I consider myself at the very least bi-sexual, in my eyes they both command the sexual attraction very well in their own right.